Starting something new always scares me. I am one of those people that like to remain in their comfort zone but I realized that’s not the way to go when you want to move forward in life.
Because of the fear of challenging myself to be better and to do more, I procrastinate a lot and I give a lot of excuses as to why I shouldn’t try something new.
Last year, 2018, I can’t say I accomplished a lot. The major thing I did last year was my training program for foreign graduates of Medical Laboratory Science which took almost the whole of 2018 (My induction is next month though yippee!). I also rebranded my blog in September of which I’m proud of but I still wasn’t consistent until this year (hopefully it stays that way). Lastly, i made new friends and strengthened old friendship of which I’m glad about.
I’m the kind of person that likes to plan. I plan a lot; I don’t mind planning someone’s day, event or anything. Somehow, I am not good at following plans. This can be attributed to my indiscipline, comfort (I love my comfort) and my overachieving self. At the end of the day, I just feel so overwhelmed and weighed down and that makes me feel like giving up of which I do sometimes.
Can you imagine, I almost deleted my blog in December? If not for friends and family that encouraged me, I probably would have gone through with it. I appreciate them.
The word that keeps ringing in my head for this year is “Definition”; it’s going to be a defining year for me. What does that even mean? I still don’t fully understand it but I know a lot will change which I believe has to do with growth and personal development. This is not some kind of “new year vibe”, but I feel it in me that this year is going to be a “defining” year for me.
At the beginning of the year, I was prompted to make certain changes in my life. How’s that going for me? Well, I am trying. Here are a few of them.
There are certain things I’d like to achieve in my life. I know one major thing that has held me back is my indiscipline. I also know that once I can deal with that, I can achieve almost anything. Therefore, I have asked God to help with that because if it’s left to me alone, nothing would change.
Real Also: Impostor Syndrome
Anyone who truly knows me would know that I don’t like reading books and if I have to, I very much prefer self-help, human behavior and motivational books. I only read books when someone highly recommends it. I realize the importance of books in building someone and as much as I would like to shy away from them, I just can’t since I want to develop myself.
So this year, I have challenged myself to read a book a month. At the end of the year, that’s 12 books. This January, I started with “Authentic Faith: 101 Keys to Experiencing Real Relationship with God” by Value Books. It’s a small book though but it’s a book and that’s progress.
I have interest in writing and computer so this year, I decided to do more when it comes to writing. I have started writing on Medium and have reached out to some publications there (Update: as at the time of posting this, I’m now a writer at The Ascent Publication, Yippee!). It will challenge me to write more thereby improving my writing skills and growing my online presence. I also read articles on writing and developing your brand online (I better execute them lol).
Concerning knowing more about computers, I just started taking a free WhatsApp class on web development. This particular skill is just for me though, but who knows, it could be a source of income. Hopefully, at the end of the year, I look back and see how far I have come; I would have improved my writing and started web development.
Getting out there
Like I previously stated, I love being in my comfort zone and staying in my comfort zone really doesn’t help me. There are things I’d love to do and ideas I’d love to pursue. What usually prevents me from doing these things is fear; fear of failure and fear of disappointing people.
However, I have decided to do new things, pursue dreams no matter how absurd it seems, start that business I have been planning to start, reach out to people, speak up more, volunteer, be bold and daring, actually put me out there and most of all, be myself!
I am learning to reduce the expectations I think people have concerning me and just relax and do me. It’s not as easy as I have typed but I know with time, it’ll get better.
I have written down some of the things I’d love to see materialize this year and hopefully, you get to see them. My real confidence is and has always been God. One of my 2019 plans is to draw near to God, by getting to know Him more for myself, digging into His word and spending time with Him. I believe that as I have committed my plans to God, He will bless them, give me the strength to accomplish them because I really can’t do them on my own and above all, His will be done in my life.
I would like to implore you to challenge yourself today. Do what you think is out of your comfort zone, try to work on yourself and improve yourself. Go to that place you have always wanted to go to. Apply to that company you always wanted to apply to. Reach out to people, put yourself out there, Challenge yourself today!
What new things have you decided to do this year? What keeps holding you back from doing the things you would love to do?
I meant to post this on Tuesday and I am just doing this today. I actually struggled with posting this mostly because I have put some of what I intend to do this year out there. So I’m like, can you really achieve these at the end of the year? Don’t disappoint o SMH. Well, it’s out there.